User Profile

a daughter - mother - sister - lover - friend - bootycall - anything you want me to be - i actually have to sides to me - on the one side, i am a very devoted, caring, and loving partner and mother. i work for the developmentally disabled and LOVE it. i love working with children and although it may be EXHAUSTING, i wouldn't trade my career for the world. i have a partner who is more of a provider than a father. he works hard for the things we have, but that's where it ends. i would LOVE for him to be more involved with us. my child is my bestfriend. he USE to be my bestfriend. don't get me wrong, we love eachother, but somewhere along the lines, the loving man became the materialistic man->the one that absolutely HAS to keep up with the jones' - on the other side, i have yet to come to grips with certain aspects of my life. i have yet to learn to let go of people who i know are bad influences on my life. this journal is to help me with things. mostly to vent. i know i may sound selfish in it and i probably want the best of both worlds. but know that these entries are mainly to vent, in person i am a very, very different person...